Assalamualaikum. How are you guys? Okay? I'm not okay. It just I can't lie myself yknow. I admit that I'm still in love with him. He's the one makes me forget my ex. In only one months. I know it sounds weird. It's not like I don't miss my ex. I do miss him. But not much as I miss this cute little boy that always make me smile. I don't even know what makes him so special in my eyes.. It just... the way he makes me smile again maybe? And I ni jenis yang manja sikit so bila dia macam selalu contact me, I feel like I'm fall for him. Don't understand? Me either.

I know it really sounds weird. Even me pun fikir it's weird for me to fall in love with him. Kenal pun tak lama then suddenly in love with him?! Like seriously?! Hahahaha told ya it sounds weird. But somehow, I can't do anything. I already fall for him. And now I'm trying my best to forget him. Like I've done for the last whole month. Yup, you don't read it wrong. For the last whole month I've put all of my effort to forget him but somehow I just can't. There's something that remind me of him. Maybe his face, his smile and his voice. The way he call me omei. Ugh I don't know. I'm so in misery right now.

Everybody told me to move on. Hey it's not like I'm not trying to move on k. I've been trying it for like a million times k?! Million times. It just there something that make me stuck with him. I don't even know how to describe my feelings right now. I feel like a dumb girl waiting for someone that doesn't care about me at all. Or maybe I am. Yes, I am dumb. I'm falling for people easily and get hurts easily too. Broke my heart into pieces and I will cry. Simple thing.

I just need someone to tell them all of my secrets, to share with my happiness and sadness. K not all of the secrets. But surely, I need someone that can understand me and take me the way I am.

P/s: It is possible to fall for someone who you already let go, again.